Elwin's Life

Before I put up the link for my new blog (although I am pretty sure if you had any brains you would have guessed the URL by then), which should be on the first week of April if I still remember, I will just spew all my incoherent thoughts here as some sort of farewell.

So, first thing that comes to my mind would probably be my ex-class, and although to be fair 4E was a nice class on the whole, but in my opinion was fucked up. Still, I love it anyway lol. Probably no better way to do it than by listing everyone out, index roll style. Recall?

Just that perhaps instead of one-liners I could ship entire paragraphs on paragraphs to everyone. Oh my god, tedious. Since I figured no one's going to read this blog ever again, I decided I could be as truthful as possible, haha.

(Random side note: OMG I just realised how childish I was two years ago LOL, reading all that bullshit from my first few posts)

Anyway~

Wei Shuen - Probably a huge honour to have had someone perceptive as you in the same class. If anything, quite possibly kept me sane through the past two years lol. There's always comfort in knowing that you are not alone, and I figured 'Thank god, I am not the only weird and fucked up person around!'.

Not that weird is a bad thing. Hardly. In fact I consider weird people blessed. At least in the not-so-weird weird sense, not the fucked-up/retarded weird sense. I am not even sure if I am making any sense, but yes lol. Maybe I was trying to drive at the point that individuality was, is and always will be a good thing. I thank you for that.

Lu Chen - As if 4E weren't full of incompatible personalities already. But it doesn't take a genius to realise that you were someone really intelligent, or maybe just because I could tell we somewhat shared outlooks on life. Definitely a very warm and approachable person. I am sorry I don't have much to say, but that's because I don't really know you well, sadly. Still, I wish you a great life ahead.

Chai Xun - I have to say that your company is one of the most enjoyable I have known yet despite the sore lack of common topics for conversation, likely because you are the most (note how rarely I use superlatives in a serious manner) genuine person in 4E, and that is one huge plus. In a pretty messed up world like this it is always good to meet someone truthful.

The award presentation video for some nonsense best boy prize or something on Facebook was hilarious. Nonetheless, history repeats itself, doesn't it? All the best, and don't ever forget me. (:

Kevin - You probably won't be surprised to hear this at all since you have to be aware that everyone is, but I am jealous of you, bahaha. It's really amusing how you had all the Vietnamese girls swoon over you during the OIPs, gosh. I guess jealousy is a really base human feeling that even cynical fucktards like me aren't immune from lol. Underlying that would have to be your undeniable charisma, no questions. Stay popular and stay true to yourself. Success will come your way.

Chee Jun - The most reserved person yet, but very obviously possessing a mind full of insight. I am not trying to impose any ideals of mine or whatever, but it's probably time you opened up and be more cheerful. To be honest this is really funny-sounding coming from me LOL, but yes. All the best.

Terence - Our first encounter, prior to everyone else in 4E, was in OBS and even till today, I am SO~ fucking glad that you were in my group. If at least for the food which you so kindly set aside for me upon knowing I am a vegetarian (lol, mushroom soup), but no. I saw an Edward in you really early on, and I wasn't wrong in a bit. Funny how liking by association comes so naturally.

There is so much else to say, I think I will leave it for two years later. Yes, once again thank god you are in my class. What an unexpected surprise, and a very pleasant one at that. I thank you for being.

Teun Yee - Quite easily one of the smartest (yes, by our intelligent/smart classification and all the pseudo-philosophical nonsense we would argue over) people, even if on the acerbic (sometimes!) side. The best part though probably is how we think on the same wavelength, and that pretty much never happens with anyone else.

It is all too amusing how I come to appreciate the really different (I just cannot find a word) conversations we have. Somehow our paths crossed again, and this time round in a positive light. By that I meant through a CCA which I finally can enjoy and attend without that ominous feeling of burden that gym always has. Anyway, see you around. We have much to bitch about lol.

Chua Yu Xuan - It was always hard for me to associate with you, not that I made an effort of any sort. I mentioned somewhere up there something about incompatible personalities haha, but still, I am glad to have known you, for whatever reason I don't know. Again, sorry for this post being so short, I am sorry I don't know you that well. Anyway, all the best.

Dexter - I am sorry if this is looking insincere, but. It was always hard for me to associate with you, not that I made an effort of any sort. I mentioned somewhere up there something about incompatible personalities haha, but still, I am glad to have known you, for whatever reason I don't know. Again, sorry for this post being so short, I am sorry I don't know you that well. Anyway, all the best. I still mean it, even if copypasta.

Felix - What a lovable person, always trying to cheer everyone up. I was under the impression that humility, academic success and good looks were a 'Choose two' kind of thing. Naw. Being the Holden Caulfield I am, my 'phony' radar was always there, but it just never bleeped for you. Perhaps you are too kind for your own good. Then it would be a contradiction to say that isn't necessarily bad, but whatever. My pleasure to have known someone like you. May all the chicks be with you, bahaha.

Yun Feng - Here's where the goods lie, people. Someone of such depth I am unable to comprehend. Our interactions were minimal, so I cannot conclude much. I wish you a good life.

Pawa - Oh gosh. I don't even know how to begin. A friend of a different kind, I think. My ability to express myself is very limited. Personally, in Sec 3, I thought you were some messed up person. Interestingly, this first impression didn't change at all LOL. But when we started sitting next to each other in Sec 4, I realised maybe our worldviews weren't too different.

In either case, very glad to have the ever-reliable and consistent assembly ponning partner alongside Son. It's actually quite evident you have a brain contrary to what you say, which you probably refuse to use. Anyway, excel your 'A' levels. Good luck.

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This gets really tiring after a while. I still have got Econs (which really is a synonym for common sense) tutorials left rotting in my room. TBC.

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Justin - It's unfortunate that we never really had the chance to know each other better. Despite that, it was clear as day that you are a really nice person. Truly sorry I don't have anything else to say, so I hope you (continue to?) enjoy you stay in Singapore and score well for your exams.

Ken - Mr. high-achiever, really happy to have had someone to share to disgusting designation of genius, so the half the burden of questions was shipped to you. LOL, just kidding. I still like you anyway, for different reasons. I suppose I could always relate to you. In fact I kind of saw myself in you, but that's sort of retarded, so never mind. It was always nice to have a conversation with you even though we didn't really much to talk about. I am not going to bother wishing you good luck in your life since you won't be needing it anyway haha. May success be with you.

Samuel - Nice to have been your classmate, even though we never talked. But that probably is a good thing lol, since I am such a sinner by the Bible's standards. God bless.

Jun Kiat - Till now, I am really unable to figure out your behaviour. It's really hard to reach a consensus (with myself, see how screwed up I am?) when you are as nice as you are fucked up, you see. No offence. But take comfort in the fact that you are still not as fucked up as I am. In either case, I hope you enjoy your next two years in RI, which in my opinion isn't too hard given your op heck of a class.

Sang Ju - While not the most agreeable person (bahaha, I don't mean it in a negative sense, I find most people like that anyway, so that's my problem), I thank you for your extraversion, since I never take the initiative in talking to people. It was good to have that energy which pretty much kept the class from feeling like a cemetery. All the best for your life, and stay happy!

Alvin - Alvin! I hope the meaning of 'I am really happy to be in your class...' doesn't get diluted over so many repetitions, but. I am so glad you were in 4E, much less need I belabour the fact I am really happy I could sit next to you for the later half of the year. School life went from bleak and boring to not-so-bleak and not-so-boring (I was hesitating whether I should use 'interesting', but that would be such a blatant lie, since school is never interesting).

I really have to thank you for engaging my brain (otherwise it would be busy undergoing atrophy) with random trivia and epic videos, even if some of these videos were plain disturbing, haha. All the best!

Kang Jie - The embodiment of all things good, quite literally. I don't think anyone is going to dispute you are the most humble, responsible, accountable, approachable, ad infinitum lol. It was a memorable experience being a classmate of yours. You will get far in life.

Anh - Stay cool, peace out.

Jason - I apologise if my insensitive words have ever offended you, although I always made sure you weren't in hearing range anyway. Regardless, sorry for my immaturity. Good luck in JC.

Reynard - To be perfectly honest, I regret that our friendship was not what it could have been. Nevertheless, I wish you a great life ahead.

Nathan - While we have known each other for a short period of time, we have had a fruitful time together. All the best in your life.

Roy - It is an extreme pity the English lexicon is so sorely limited I am unable to ever accurately articulate what I feel, besides a bear hug, but that isn't exactly English. It was amusing to witness that metamorphosis from someone happy-go-lucky (remember all the countless pointless DotA games where we would just waste each other's time away for the sake of itself) to one of the most driven people I have seen in my life and being rewarded with a splendid GPA. I am happy for you. But this is a pretty superficial view, I suppose.

On a more intimate level, I thank you for being such a great friend. Even though I never really approached you for anything, I knew I could approach you whenever I needed to, and that's good enough for me lol. Perhaps it was mentally tiring to put up with my little emo drought, but -.- it isn't as if I was at any point in time a truly happy and content person. I will miss you so sorely (I already am at the time of writing this post in fact) sigh. Since success is of high value to you, I sincerely wish you all the best, it's the least I can do for you (except shipping questions to me amirite? lol jk). Apologies for being so remiss, these two paras are unable to do you justice. Thank you for gracing my life.

Tan Yu Xuan - Also in 12S06A, it's a fixed meeling thing. Despite the exhibitionist that you are (which imho is really obnoxious, but who am I to judge), I recognise you are a very nice person. I suppose I will postpone this difficult business to 2 years later, haha.

T.Kam - I didn't know you that well, so all I can offer are my well wishes. Good luck in everything you do.

Son - I will consider writing something if you pay up. :@ Sigh, see you around.

Hubert - Thank you for always so reliable! We have known each other since forever and from day 1 (maybe year 1, but whatever) it was an open secret you are the nicest person around. Since the end of 4E marked the end of our interactions for the most part, I guess I just have to say, stay the nice person you are. The world loves you.

Brendan - Perhaps it's my sentimentality or whatever, but in the deep recesses of my mind I recall the stupid rectangular note you made in one of those bubble periods. I mean, really. Thank you lol. I don't even know how to express my gratitude.

So that concludes my barrage of I don't know what.

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Originally I intended this post to be a really comprehensive reflection upon the past 4 or, at least, 2 years, but as always I lost the motivation halfway. Sorry to disappoint, but my new blog is slated to be infinitely more interesting and sophisticated, so ship yourselves there.

In sum, the past two years were a really memorable period of my life, perhaps the most emotionally volatile period of my life but, it is in misery that one finds happiness all the more enjoyable. This blog will always hold a special place in my heart, and one day when I grow up and look back, this will be my time capsule, the only link for me to my former self. As such, I am leaving this blog alone and not ship it for deletion. Perhaps if you need a primary source of idiocy and immaturity just tune in any time.

By virtue of the fact you have read all the way here, I love you. From the bottom of my empty heart. Lol.

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With lots of love signing off on my last post ever on this beloved blog,

Elwin.

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P.S. My new blog over at WordPress is a work in progress and will be worked on over the next few months. Do be patient while I develop content over the empty posts.